tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-154969752024-03-07T07:52:56.704-08:00Object of My Injection...One girl. One disease. One big journey. And so it goes. My story unfolds. I'm here. I'm living with a diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis. Pretty scary stuff. I find myself here trying to make sense of it all - some days are good and some days are bad. My days are filled with the trials and tribulations of daily life that we all face, only I face them day to day with a little something nicknamed MS. Here is my journal...Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.comBlogger150125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-19327796738954223112010-09-25T22:55:00.000-07:002010-09-25T23:01:47.979-07:00September 25th...well 26th now, I guess! 2010I can't believe I'm still up. I did take a 4 hour nap this afternoon though so maybe that had something to do with it! I can't even begin to tell you how great THAT felt. I also got feeling back in my ribs, my upper back and the palms of my hands today. I gotta ask the fellow MS'ers...does it make me a complete baby that everytime I get feeling back in my hands I start to sob like that crazy old lady in the back pew no one knows at a wedding? I hope not because it makes me feel good, - no GREAT that I can feel my own hair without it making me cringe in pain. I hope it's a sign I'm over the hump and don't have to face an IV for 5 days to eventually stop this. Everyone knows how I feel about the prednisone in large doses (i.e. cocaine steriods in a bag)... Now onto tomorrow, maybe I'll get the feet to cooperate, too. I hope so...I've got 2 exciting photo shoots tomorrow! Night all!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-62562997302314820852010-09-22T18:39:00.001-07:002010-09-22T18:43:33.732-07:00September 22nd, 2010Today I felt pretty good after a good night's sleep. It can do wonders for the spirit and soul, not to mention the stuff between one's ears. So far so good, the symptoms are staying steady at numb and annoying and the gabapentin is keeping the beast at bay until I can figure out if this is a full-blown attack. I would love nothing more than to not have to live on prednisone for 2 weeks while I fight of symptoms that resemble a crack whore looking for a fix. I'd rather eat straight caffiene than deal with the weaning of that stuff! Well, off to bed to be boring and tonight, well, that's just the way I'd prefer it. :O)Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-80356800584765746692010-09-21T19:00:00.000-07:002010-09-21T19:23:35.603-07:00September 21st, 2010Seems like forever ago I was a girl fighting the silly little nuances of a disease I wanted to forget. Too bad it won't let me. I'm 3 days into total frustration of a flare up and I don't even know how to feel about it. It's been almost 3 years disease free and wouldn't you know it, right about the time I feel like super girl...BAM! That stupid ugly son of b*tching MonSter rears it's ugly head. The nerve, I swear. I'd kick it's a$$ if I could feel my feet. :O)Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-9682721696112365762009-03-25T19:02:00.000-07:002009-03-25T19:14:40.879-07:00March 25, 2009 - A long awaited updateHello my friends. It has been quite some time since I found my self here. For those of you who don't know me, haven't been here before or have known me for some time now I can't thank you all enough for finding me here. It's been almost a year and a half since I posted and as I type here I remember how much solace a good post can bring. <br /><br />August 2007 seems like forever ago, but to an MS'er with good health, it can appear to be a lifetime. I had one attack in the last year and a half and boy was it a GOOD one. That damn MonSter reared it's ugly head and 3 steriod treatments later, I had killed the beast. I should have blogged through it, but this attack took me a new path. It left me a bit angry for a couple of months until I picked myself up, kicked my own ass and got back to the reality - life was going on without me.<br /><br /> As soon as I was healthy I felt fantastic and I was blessed as much because in July of 2008 Mike and I walked down the aisle and I did indeed become, THE Mrs. McCarville. We had a small wedding with immediate family only and had a rather large reception later when we had recovered from the wedding! [NOTE TO THOSE HERE WITH MS: Getting married with a small shindig and saving the energy for a party later helps that beast stay buried!] <br /><br />Life has been great as a new wife. We just had our honeymoon in Mexico and I'm learning Spanish now as a result. I've been there twice now in two years and we can't wait to go back. I think I shall try to convince my husband these trips are healthwise very therapeutic! <br /><br />Ok, so this post isn't my normal laugh your rear off post that would normally be bestowed upon yourselves, but if it helps I'm drinking a lemocello lemonade and smiling just to know you are reading this. I'M LAUGHING because I was going to drink it for dinner and I'm toasting you all hoping you are all healthy, happy and well. <br /><br />God Bless, and I promise you'll see more of me soon. - MichaMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-49553777930361268292007-08-02T15:51:00.000-07:002007-08-02T17:00:06.499-07:00August 2nd, 2007 - Moments of Silence for I-35WThank you to absolutely everyone for being concerned for the well being of those who dwell in and around the Twin Cities over the last 2 days. It will no doubt never be the same here. Everyone that I have the pleasure of knowing is safe and sound. I ask that you continue to pray for those who are in need of medical attention, those yet not found, and those families who are missing loved ones at this time. The magnatude of what happened last night at 6:05pm will be forever instilled in the residents of the Twin Cities. We are forever greatful for the outpouring of support from people such as yourselves and we are proud of our city servicemen and women for making sure that our city's disaster plan went into effect with absolute success. For more details on the I-35W bridge collapse, please click <a href="http://www.startribune.com/">HERE. </a> [www.startribune.com] God Bless. - MichaMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-38673694076335187142007-03-07T09:50:00.000-08:002007-03-07T09:57:46.755-08:00March 5th-9th -National MS week<p><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/UIBbgWabzUw" width="425" height="350" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent"></embed></p><p><a href="http://www.jointhemovement.org?=jtmblack_206_98"><img src="http://www.nationalmssociety.org/jtm/button_jtm_black.gif" alt="JOIN THE MOVEMENT" width="206" height="98" border="0" /></a></p><p><br /><br />Take some time. Learn. Educate. Hug someone this week with MS! </p>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1168397814994417752007-01-09T18:30:00.000-08:002007-01-09T19:03:31.580-08:00January 9, 2007 - Some catching up to do!<em>"Oh where or where has my little do---, blog gone?"</em><br /><em><br /></em>In honesty, it was on a haitus there for a couple of months and if I didn't write soon, Miss Linda - my mostest loyalest nicest fan (sucking up here) will fill out the paperwork for an APB, I'm sure of it. You do like cookies, right Linda? Ahem...on with the posting. It's been a long couple of months since I last wrote to all of you including and all of my wonderful MS'ers out there. This post may be long so please bear with me and if you have to -- go to the bathroom now BEFORE you get sucked in any further.<br /><br />First let me say Happy New Year to all of you wonderful yous out there and hopefully the holidays have smiled on you. I hope you are all 1. healthy, 2. happy, and most of all 3. able to look ahead if the first two have failed you somehow. Second, My thoughts and prayers are with some families, three families in fact, who are close to my dear friends, the Snyders, and are all finding their lives upside down. May God bless those who are in need the most right now and keep them all in your hearts. Life changes in an instant. Be prepared.<br /><br />After a few months of not sleeping and finding myself way out of whack, I was exhausted. Right before Thanksgiving, my body told me so. I was so sick I was in bed for three days. I lost weight this Thanksgiving, it was the only plus to the situation. I realized that I had not in fact slept through the night completely in over a month or so. When I thought about when the last time I slept through the night for two days in a row, I couldn't. I finally had enough. I made an appointment to go see my physician to see if I was indeed crazy. Alright enough with the laughing, I can hear you from here. Turns out I'm not --- so there you pack of smarty pantses giving me a nudge. :O) It turns out that I have a sleep anxiety that keeps my brain on the loose long after I'm ready to retire. It was taking me nearly 45 minutes to a couple of hours to fall asleep. Well, Dr. Cure (swear on my mom's life this is his real name) gave me a little something that was non-addictive to sleep. It worked like a charm and after two weeks. I slept 5 days in a row through the night. I realized I hadn't done that since I was diagnosed with MS almost 3 1/2 years ago. I guess we don't really think about things as much as we should. With MS, it's almost as if you dismiss actual symptoms because you can't tell them from the real stuff unless it really rears an ugly head. Am I the only one who does this? I would assume that I am not, but hey you know what they say about assuming things. Ah yea... see how well that phrase ends?<br /><br />So some good news for all of you. First let me close by saying thanks for the virtual shoves, pushes, pokes and prods from all of you in the blogosphere. I promise that I will be back a bit more to uplift you all, enlighten you and just entertain you with my ramblings.<br /><br />Ok, onto the good news. First of all Mike was named firefighter of the year for the city. I am so proud of him. He works very hard and he deserved the award and honor bestowed upon him this year at the annual awards dinner on December 9th this year. More good news... The day after Christmas Mike asked me to marry him. I said yes!, yes!, yes!, yes!, yes! (You get the idea here, I shant go on more like I did the day he asked me, LOL.) No dates set yet. There is still much to do before we think about thinking about a date. I received the most wonderful gifts for Christmas -- plenty of hugs and company from all of my family including my official new one to be, and the most wonderful husband to be.<br /><br />Hands down this year has started with a bang. Give this year all you have and may all of your individual 2007's be nothing but banner. My thoughts are with all of you. In the words of that crazy Miss Spears, "God Bless Y'ALL!"Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1162007892122363002006-10-27T20:52:00.000-07:002006-10-27T21:19:16.043-07:00October 27th, 2006 - ThoughtsAh, Fridays. Glorious they are. Thanks to everyone for prodding me lately. Good to poke at your neighbors and make sure they are ok once in awhile. I feel back to my old self again and for that....another Ahh..........followed by life is brilliant.<br /><br />I have a question for everyone with MS. Have any of you ever...<br /><br />1. Been way overdue on your tentanus titers?<br />2. Skipped them altogether after they started making you get them on your own cuz you are a needle chicken?<br /><br />Just curious.<br /><br />Oh, I almost forgot! Miss Jaime has a wonderful little project going on. Go <a href="http://www.brightercd.com/">HERE</a> to learn more and buy! It's good stuff. Just listen to <a href="http://www.brightercd.com/images/03_What_If.mp3">THIS</a>! "Told you so!" Man I love saying that. Three youngers sisters never, ever, lets that phrase get old.<br /><br />And on that note..... CLAAAAAAAASSSSSIC!<br /><br /><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/7ePqn5Ci5FY" width="375" height="300" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent"></embed>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com17tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1158598355332781502006-09-18T09:06:00.000-07:002006-09-18T09:52:35.566-07:00September 18th, 2006 - BAH!So this Monday started out with a speeding ticket. I frigging don't speed to work. Especially today, cuz I'm in no hurry to start a Monday y'all. EVER! Those of you who know me are laughing absolutely unfreaking controllably. (I'm NOT a morning person). Anyway... I guess I'll be going to court on this one. [NOTE TO SELF: No swearing in public court.] I have some new readers and emails in here in MSland and I want to personally say "Hello", "Aloha" and "Cocktails on me if you are ever in Minneapple." <br /><br />Danny: Good luck starting a therapy and I hope that it agrees with you!<br />Michelle: Nice name! Glad you came by to say hi! P.S. I'm adding you to my blogroll and P.S.S. I love the pincushion cartoon. Heeeelarious! I think we have all been there.<br />Chris: You my dear are crazy. If I did karate, I'd be a human pretzel, too! Kidding. You are very ambitious and I'm glad you popped in to introduce yourself. I'm adding you to the blogroll as well. <br /><br />To you regulars:<br /><br />Camille - It is so nice to hear from you! I hope things get a little more calm.<br />Suzy - You rule! You rule! You rule! Can you read my mind lady? I swear you have the manual to my head.<br />Mdvondpa - I eat bluberries and rock fruit to the 9's. Now if the side effects from that (you know what I'm talking about) would go south. No pun intended here folks. Yikes.<br />Linda - The dark side made oatmeal chocolate chip this weekend. Email me your address and I'll send you fruits of my labor, er evil planning. <br />Aunt Peg, Dad and Ash - Thanks for the hello and worry!<br />Jaime- Hello girl! Hope all is well for you and good to hear from you.<br />LANEY - I love you! P.S. Four kids is nothing. Date a full-time volunteer firefighter AND his department involuntarily. GRR! Coffee it is. Name it lady, will travel.<br /><br />ALL: I FEEL WONDERFUL TODAY! Now that my weekend was mellow, I got sleep. I spent time with my sister (rough patch for her, but improving) and she laughed again. My shots are on a regular basis and things are looking up. It's not that the side effects are an ongoing pain in the south forty, it's just that when the doctor and pharmacist can't get them filled on time, I get super whacked out physically and emotionally. I hate to be dependent on anything, but when my mood, my health and my energy levels are normal with Rebif, I'm not quitting. I may break<br />maybe to get my head back to a normal level (ha! normal, THAT is funny!), but I am not a quitter. At least not today, this month, or this year. I'm glad that my mental and physical health has smiled on me lately, because my relationship at home is poo. I'm invisible and today I'm ok with that. We'll see where it goes, one day at a time. He's gone for a week this week and<br />I can just be. I must go get some caffiene kids. I'm thinking vanilla latte. The kind you drink at 38 degrees with light snow and relish every sip. That KIND of vanilla latte sans snow. I'm just not ready for four letter "S" words today folks. Cheers all - have great weeks!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1158358823236966192006-09-15T15:12:00.000-07:002006-09-15T15:20:23.250-07:00September 15th, 2006 - A little breathing RoomIn the last four weeks or more that I have felt like crap, I've decided that my shots and the side effects could have possibly making my life miserable. I was right. I went off of them almost three weeks ago and boom. A 180 turn around. I can get through the day, I don't break into tears at moment's notice and I can focus on actual work at work instead of staring blank at it. I also felt well enough to start them again two days ago after some much needed rest. So far, so good. A little achy flu-like symptom, but that is about it. I might just be normal by next week. We'll see. To all of you who shot me a pick me up - thank you. Sometimes I guess we just all need a break once in awhile. I mean we all have different versions of crazy, but just plain nuts is something we all should avoid if at all possible. *LAUGHS* I plan to have a great weekend, you should too! Ciao my loyal fans!Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1158005647022963362006-09-11T13:10:00.000-07:002006-09-11T13:17:25.843-07:00September 11th, 2006 - Time to reflectTake a moment and reflect. Remember September 11th.<br /><br />“The salvation of this human world lies nowhere else than in the human heart, in the human power to reflect, in human meekness and human responsibility.” -Vaclav HavelMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1156991778823817052006-08-30T19:33:00.000-07:002006-08-30T19:36:18.836-07:00August 30, 2006Today I'm home from work and I'm going to bed early. I have no idea how this has happened, but it seems like a blessing. I'm exhausted. Not much else to say. Keeping my chin up and trying to dig out. Ha. Ha. Someone told me I seem depressed today. Thanks, Captain Obvious. Think you could send over Leutenant Duh for the full workup? Nice to know that I still think I'm funny in spite of feeling like poo. LOL. Night all.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1156823827882253652006-08-28T20:46:00.000-07:002006-08-28T20:58:51.196-07:00August 28, 2006 - A little faith or little faith...Today I have found the urge to write in this journal. I once used to find solace here. Instead lately I have found myself avoiding the one thing that used to free my worries...my journal. I find that lately it's not a little faith, it's little faith that I have. Every day is a chore to get through, my concentration is nil. I find that socially I want nothing, I can't wait until the day ends and I dread when it starts. I'm in need of some major mind set that is far from what I have going on right now. I feel like everything I do is some sort of test and that God is indeed doing just that. He's testing me. I moved in with my boyfriend, I miss my house. I miss my friends that have moved on and I have no urge to put efforts into new ones. I feel like my boyfriend is completely disappointed in me and has lost faith in me as a person. I feel like I fight uphill everyday to be something other than depressed and feeling like this person I hate. I find the only time lately I'm at peace is when I am sleeping. I should be doing just that right now. It<br />couldn't hurt considering what time it is. Tomorrow I promise that I will be back here writing. Whether or not it makes sense to anyone is beyond me, but I'll be back. Babbling and maybe finding again the solace that I have lost. I'm sorry I don't have better news, but at least I'm honest. I hope everyone is well and I promise to keep trying to keep my chin up or at least a little more than it is now. Goodnight all.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1150152278975026462006-06-12T15:32:00.000-07:002006-06-12T15:44:38.993-07:00June 12th, 2006- 3 outta 5 ain't bad!This weekend I regained feeling in three of my five fingers on my right hand. I took full advantage of the knitting situation sans ordering my wool (no internet, sniff sniff) and knitting up a new project. My brain must have been vacationing while my new fingers were walking because I used the wrong damn needles. Three quarters through my felted clutch (purse for the male readers) I figured this out! Had I felted this thing in the washer I would have had a Barbie purse! Ode to MS! I am officially going crazy and loving it! One ripped out clutch (purse again for you male readers) and one new clutchy/pursey/thingy later on new needles and voila - near perfection. I will not be beaten by a two letter pain in the ass [insert meniacal smile here!]<br /><br />I have found the perfect gift for me! At Elann.com, the coolest yarn store ever!, you can give gift certificates to my account (michababy1@ hotmail.com) by clicking <a href="hthttp://secure.elann.com/shopper.asp?jumpto=giveagifttp://">HERE</a>. You simply register yourself, enter my email, and I than I get to think you are indeed the coolest person I know and knit until my fingers fall off or I lose feeling again in the 3 I just got back! How cool is that? There is a god! Sorry, but $2.25 hanks of wool make me crazy excited! DAD, ARE YOU READING THIS??? ANYONE READING?? So nice to know other people can fuel addictions via the internet that are not illegal. Altogether now..........<em>AHH, that's nice.</em>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1149096343286528452006-05-31T10:10:00.000-07:002006-05-31T10:25:43.303-07:00May 30, 2006 - One big catch up!Ok. I 've been MORE THAN lacking for those of you who actually enjoy reading this thing (*wink, wink*) I can only offer the following explanations and beg for forgiveness from you my loyal fans.<br /><br />1. My boyfriends house does not have internet and work isn't the ideal place to blog.<br />2. I've moved basically into my boyfriends house (sans the large furniture and kitchenware).<br />3. The ripped apart deck and newly painted house (boyfriends) has been taking up my free time.<br />4. When I get a chance to relax --I pick up my knitting needles because I have not knit in over a month.<br /><br />I hope this helps. I have been battling some symptoms for the last couple of months that seemed to start in my feet such as my last two nasty attacks. Well they got better and decided to vacation somewhere else -- my arms! One arm has completely recovered, my left, but the right has yet to come around. I was without knitting for a month or so due to that painful feeling you get (those of us who have this LOVELY symptom) when you run your hands across anything with texture whether it's clothes, fabric to fold laundry, your own hair while washing or **sniff, sniff** yarn! I am bearing with it and sticking to my humourous self. I tried gloves and a sock to dampen the feeling. It's been really hot here and VERY humid. 100 degrees and 50-90% plus humidity. I applied for handicap plates to battle the elements such as these. I'm like a limp ragdoll by the time I get from the car to the grocery store in whether like this. Turns out I have to live and have a license in the same state. Oops. I guess that one bit me in the rump. I've lived here for over ten years and I still have a South Dakota license. I can't be expected to do everything you know! LOL. I watched another little sister graduate from high school this last Memorial weekend. I am so proud of her. She switched her mortar hat to Mickey Mouse ears before walking and walked through to recieve her diploma. Sneaky and brave girl. She normally would have needed some prodding. I think she might have had help with the encouragement. My sister Lacey was near her just before the switcheroo. I think I found the missing link. My mom also may have helped by conveniently sewing a button into her gown to hold the ears incognito. Always a three ring circus when our family surfaces. Anyway, I hope all is well with everyone and everyone is enjoying the new subscription service. I'm working on getting internet out at Mike's in a month or two so that I can update more often. P.S. I have fallen in love with Diet Sunkist Lemonade and this week's craving (three weeks in a row) is TADA! Peanut M&M's. Ugh, I need a hobby.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1147800595462185452006-05-16T10:24:00.000-07:002006-05-16T10:29:55.496-07:00May 16th, 2006 - UPDATE TO SUBSCRIPTION SERVICEUPDATE TO SUBSCRIPTION SERVICE:<br /><br />If you want to recieve updates emailed to you when they are updated on this site you can subscribe to this web site. Simply enter your email on the right hand side. You will receive an email from FEEDBLITZ giving you the details of the new post.<br /><br />If you already are a subscriber to Object of My Injection, our feed has changed from BLOGLET to FEEDBLITZ. Your new updates will in an email form from FEEDBLITZ instead of BLOGLET. Please email me <a href="mailto:michababy1@hotmail.com">michababy1@hotmail.com</a> if you have any questions. Thanks! - MichelleMichellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1147117198564545952006-05-08T12:37:00.000-07:002006-05-08T12:55:18.796-07:00May 8th, 2006 - The 86'ing of old friendMuch to my delight (ok- pure lie here), I have recreated my guestbook and I'm now running it through blogger. I can't keep up with the constant spamming. Someone keeps trying to sell me Ambien & Cialis. I could use Ambien, but I don't think web pharmas are my karma.<br /><br /><a href="http://objectofmyinjectionguestbook.blogspot.com/">NEW & IMPROVED GUEST BOOK HERE </a><br /><br />Also, the link to the right has also been updated! Cheers everyone & happy Monday.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1145895374104558532006-04-24T09:10:00.000-07:002006-04-24T11:59:26.113-07:00April 24th, 2006 - Well said, Miss Pink...I gotta tell you. Miss Pink says some pretty serious stuff in this new video of hers called Dear Mr. President. My hats off to her.<br /><br /><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/9eDJ3cuXKV4" width="400" height="325" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1145549589356203522006-04-20T08:57:00.000-07:002006-04-20T12:08:22.243-07:00April 20th, 2006Ah. I gotta tell you something - those Caribou people and that moosing of coffee is a great thing. Two hours of sleep last night and I'm - pardon me - draggin arse this morning. I am surprisingly feeling fairly well though. I've had this numbness in my feet that seems to be subsiding on my own to which I am grateful. I've had my feet go the same "numb" before twice and both times were followed by the two nasty attacks I had last year. I am thinking that this will clear up on its own for once. I forced myself to work out last night. I am so glad i did because I made these silly Bisquick Cinnamon Swirl bisquits when I got home and they jumped in my mouth from the warm oven. Mysterious phenomenon, the jumping bisquits. Anyone else have this problem? Things just mysteriously jump from the oven to hungry mouths or even more mysterious - they evaporate somewhere unknown from the pan? It eludes me ;o) The new job is panning out well. I have officially been here six months now and counting. I have had an extra busy last two weeks to which I am being paid a little bonus. YEA! I must say it's really nice having a job where people actually appreciate you instead of take advantage of you. I have another question for readers. Ok, two questions. 1) Why the hell do people ask you to watch a freaking guest book during a wedding? Will someone steal it? Will someone mysteriously write say, Marilyn Monroe as an entry? What the hell is this guest book job? I'll tell you what it is. It's a job created by people who just want to throw you in the wedding for the hell of it. REFERENCE = punch server. 2) What the hell is up with functions being executed on Holiday weekends. My sister Holly's high school graduation is on Memorial Day weekend. I know she didn't plan it that way, but who is the jackass who decided this was acceptable? As if finding a babysitter for some people with little ones wasn't hard enough? Last year we had some friends who threw their wedding on Labor Day weekend. I think if you choose to throw your function on a holiday weekend one of two things should happen. The first - you understand that if I have kids or previous plans I will NOT see you, but good luck to you whatever it is you decided to do on my vacation. The second - if I do cancel plans so I can attend your function you forfiet your gift - no questions asked, end of story, you get nothing from me as a token of my appeciation for your incosiderate planning tactics. Anyone else find this completely and utterly out of line? For GOD sake, I get ten holidays out of 365 days a year of working all year long. Who the hell says a YOU can use them FOR me? Thoughts for Thursday- or venting, your call :o) Oooh, I feel MUCH better. Thanks for your silent ears people. You rock.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1144178655592548282006-04-04T11:52:00.000-07:002006-04-04T15:01:17.720-07:00April 4th, 2006Ah yes... one year older now (the big April Fool's Birthday explains a LOT of missing links, lol) and I'm finally on my last year of roaring 20's. I must say that some days that they are indeed, NOT roaring. They are replaced by fatigue, frustration, and joyous bouts of crying for no reason. After really what I like to call "avoiding" my blog for quite some time, I must tell you that I have this overwhelming urge to pen some of my latest "stuff". So here are some of my randoms thoughts. I'm sure that you will indeed be drawn to my ramblings with complete and undivided attention. Ah, hem, cough, cough... [CUE: CHEESY MUSIC]<br /><br />I threw my parents a 25th anniversary party this year on March 11th. I've decided that love comes in all flavors and colors, like skittles if you will. [SIDE NOTE: I realize the difference between comforting love and love with comfort.] The more I age I see it all around me. Whether or not, you see it in your lifetime will be a true measure of your integrity. I successfully planned a party for my parents, whom I love dearly, without falling over from exhaustion or becoming a party dictator and bossing my three little sisters around too much. They were pretty happy that I wasn't a party dictator, too. It could have easily happened with my bit of strive for perfection. I think I have learned when and when not to calm down and breathe for the good of my health. These last few months I've laid low and appreciated every minute of rest I get. I love waking up on my own without my alarm when it does happen. Not saying it happens often, but it does happen more than it did. I've had problems with my fingers and feet just being funny feeling in the last few months and a LOT of L'hermittes response lately. I am grateful it comes and goes and has not evolved into something more. I've started working out again and I forget to not look down when I run. I'm sure eventually that if I do, the l'hermittes will cause me to pass out or fly off the treadmill for sure. [SIDE NOTE #2: Both would be extremely funny.] So far, so good. I'm down to 114 from 121 lbs, some might say that is little, but I am 5'5" tall on a good day. I'm hoping to eventually be at 118 with more gained muscle. The more I work out, the better I sleep, the stronger I am and the better I feel. Who doesn't love fitting into those jeans collecting dust in your closet for over a year? Anyway.... what else? Ah, my pharmacy for two months in a row has delivered my medication late. Once for a late filled prescription and now twice for apparently only filling the refilled prescription for one refill! Does that makes sense to anyone? Why in goodness name did my neurologist only refill my Rebif for one month? Did she think we'd find a cure in the last 30 days? Wishful thinking?? Oh, ha ha ha. I'm suppose to have a shot tomorrow morning, which is not going to get here until Thursday. This means that by this weekend I should be an anxious, compulsive basket case. I might have to hibernate in the new book my sister bought me, The Yarn Harlot. It looks as if we, the author and I, may share a bit of obsessive compulsive knitting. This is fine with me because even if it IS true, it's my reserve. It calms me when nothing seems to help. It puts me in a place where I can relax for a bit and think mindlessly when things don't always go as planned. Anyone else find comfort in being a complete yarn ho? Happy Tuesday everyone and happy knitting my fellow yarn peeps.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1142361452470160322006-03-14T10:36:00.000-08:002006-03-16T08:07:32.126-08:00March 14-17th, MS Awareness Week!Just reminding everyone to take time and tell someone with MS you support them! Visit the <a href="http://faceofms.org">Face of MS</a> and read a story or share your own!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.nationalmssociety.org/awareness.asp" title="Link to MS Awareness Week Web Site"><img src="http://www.nationalmssociety.org/email_buttons/band.jpg" alt="MS Awareness Week: March 13-17, 2006" width="122" height="51" border="0" /></a>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1140648666405438052006-02-22T14:21:00.000-08:002006-02-22T15:05:03.496-08:00February 22nd, 2006 - Finally Some ThoughtsI have overcome my writer's block, injections still suck and sleep is so wonderful these days now with morning shots. I have been working and loving work to the fullest. I have been in contact with a lovely lady named Laura, whose 17 year old daughter Alea was newly diagnosed with MS recently, has started injections and experiences the pains of what those of us starting therapy discover. My thoughts go out to her as a mother. Watching your children be frustrated or someone you love in complete exhaustive depression is not a highlight I wish onto anyone. My thoughts are with Laura and Alea. My thoughts lately are also with Robin whose 25 year old daughter was recently diagnosed. By coicidence, she was diagnosed at 25 and also has a Mike who loves her to no bounds. Each of us deserves people who love us to no bound. Robin writes:<br /><blockquote><span style="font-size:85%;">It is now several days later. She began to ask questions that night, and the next day got on the internet and researched all day. She showed me the spirit I have always known her to have when she said to me that night, "If I'm going to share my body with MS, I'm going to have to learn to get along with it." I know Rachel has only begun a long and challenging journey. She does not yet realize the fullness of this challenge, and I worry that when she does begin to see that it will take her willpower and her strength. I already see how it has taken a toll on her physical endurance in such a short time. When I see the things you have been through and the extraordinary way you have dealt with them, I am comforted, and my hope is renewed. I also see what is important to managing day to day life and how to align myself in ways that will be helpful to my daughter. I want to thank you for this.I know this has been a letter all about us and I feel somewhat selfish for reaching into your life and taking solace and strength from you, but somehow, I get the impression that this will be ok with you.</span><br /></blockquote>Yes. It is ok. It's great. My heart goes out to you both and knows the frustration and solace I have found in others as you have found in me. May we always feel loved. Period. I have been having a lot of L'hermittes response lately. L'hermitte's ign is an electrical sensation (Shock, Lightning Bolt) that some MSers experience, when flexing the neck, tilting, or lowering the head towards the chest. It begins at the base of the skull, runs down the Spine and into the limbs, before exiting through the hands or feet. I think it feels as if you are leaning your back against the fridge when the compressor is on. It's strange and comes and goes, but makes me laugh anyway. Close your eyes and you think you are on a tilt o' whirl somewhere and you never had to pay, haha! Anyway, these last few months have been about getting back to normal. I think I've done that quite well with some minor falls off of the horse. I knit everyday I am awake nearly and Monday night I forgot how to purl. Right in the middle of a row, I just forgot. I stopped and was easily reminded that I will never be the same, but in someways I will be better. If I never take anything for granted I will always be a better person in the end whether or not I never knit again someday or forget how to altogether. Scared or not, I'll be me and I think that is a hell of something to be if you ask me. *wink*Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1136313404672596162006-01-03T10:35:00.000-08:002006-01-23T11:31:47.876-08:00January 3, 2006A brand new year is upon us. I can't help but reflect. I find good and bad and realize that a New Year's resolution should be to banish the writer's block I recently have had. I find that the older I get, the harder it is to hit that 12:00am New Year's mark. Oh well, a fun time was had by all of my friends. It was the first year that I didn't venture into the city limits for some fireworks and hooplah. I spent it among friends from California and we made our own hooplah. Did you know if you blow hard enough into those cheap horns, they sound like dying elephants? Bet you didn't. Ha ha.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1135219096501300872005-12-21T18:30:00.000-08:002005-12-21T18:39:13.550-08:00December 21st, 2005 - Reflection<p style="font-family: arial;" class="MsoNormal"><span style=";font-size:100%;color:black;" ><span style=";color:black;" >Once again – a Holiday email! Maybe next year I’ll work on those Christmas cards if I'm not so lazy.<br /></span></span></p> <p style="font-family: arial;" class="MsoNormal"><span style=";font-size:100%;color:black;" ><span style=";color:black;" >After a long year, I find myself reflecting on what matters most in this world. This year my MS tested me to its full potential. I was under the weather for most of the year up until September aside from a few weeks at the end of March through mid April. I fought everyday to keep my head afloat and showed up to a job every day that I hated only to find that I was given a generous severance package after asking for a cost of living increase after almost 5 years. I waited a long time for more work opportunity and a little bit more money. I saw neither. I was blessed enough to start my preventative treatments for my MS, take some paid time off (two months) and land a job that lets me run with scissors. All of it coincided and let me find balances in my finances, fights with stress, create and continue building my online journal about my MS, deal with my therapy side effects, and find myself. I am very grateful for those who helped me along the way find out who I am in my journey this year. I have met many wonderful people through this blog and to those of you who battle with me, we will win the fight. We are wonderful people and some of you are the best friends I've never met. This has been one of the hardest years of my life. Without the support of everyone, online, in spirit, and in person, life may have been a little less tolerable. I am getting back into the swing of everyday life, being healthy once again, and just loving day to day the things that come my way. I couldn’t be happier.<br /></span></span></p> <p style="font-family: arial;" class="MsoNormal"><span style=";font-size:100%;color:black;" ><span style=";color:black;" >I am taking the time today to let everyone know I have landed back in Michelleville and it's a great place to be in. I've been away for awhile. I ask that each of you reflect on the important things in life. Stop. Breathe. Be thankful. Enjoy your Holidays and know that I am thankful for each and everyone of you to have blessed my life in some way and helped me fight the battle one day at a time. You are all very much loved.<br /></span></span></p> <p style="font-family: arial;" class="MsoNormal"><span style=";font-size:100%;color:black;" ><span style=";color:black;" >Happy Holidays and safe travels to each of you... </span></span></p> <p style="font-family: arial;" class="MsoNormal"><span style=";font-size:100%;color:black;" ><span style=";color:black;" >Micha</span></span></p>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15496975.post-1132113578115615282005-11-15T19:37:00.000-08:002005-11-15T20:32:55.576-08:00November 1st - 15th, 2005I apologize for the huge gap in my blog. It's been a long tough road the last couple of weeks. Here's a recap to update everyone: I've...<br /><br />Had interviews with the following:<br />Fire Protection Company 9<br />Career Agency E<br />Thermal Packaging Company S<br />Map Company N<br />Thermal Packaging Company S (2nd Interview)<br />Retail Broker D<br />Thermal Packaging Company S (3rd InterviewD)<br />Retail Broker D (2nd Interview)<br />Map Company N (2nd Interview)<br />Turned down the following: <br />Retail Broker D (This really was a GREAT company) <br />Learned I was turned down for the following:<br />Marketing Company R (2nd Interview) <br />Found out is not hiring a position anymore:<br />Insurance Company H<blockquote>AND........drum roll................</blockquote>Accepted a position with: Thermal Packaging Company S as their new Office Manager! <br /><br />27 interviews total and I found what I was looking for. I was offerred the position on Friday November 11th and started officially yesterday. I can't tell you the number of things I learned during interviewing. Of those, I learned that:<br />1. Employees should be rewarded for hard work.<br />2. Micromanaging is for the birds.<br />3. I am an asset to any company I work for and put my mind to.<br />4. I can force myself to stop and let things fall in place and finally have the patience to keep myself from stressing out.<br />I received a number of rejection letters, but one will stand out as something I have strived to hear from my old employer of 4 years. It was a regular rejection letter from Map Company N, typed in a template, except for one thing. It had a handwritten note at the bottom from the controller. It said..."Michelle, It was a very tough decision for us. You are very talented and have a skill set beyond your years. I know you will be an asset to any company you work for. I plan on keeping your resume on file. Thanks and best of luck to you, M" I had asked for a salary at the high end of their pay scale, but I think that they understood what they were giving up in return. That letter showed me that it pays to work hard and it was just the boost I needed to pick me up. I am talented. I am skillful. I will find a position that fits me, my work ethic, and my need to run with scissors. I did. I found a position and I couldn't be more happy. They are paying me what I wanted. They are paying my cobra when it kicks in. They will implement a medical plan soon, along with bonus, 401K, and profit sharing. Best of all, in this position, I get to run with scissors. I'm finally healthy, I'm finally employed again in a position that screams my name, and I've FINALLY slept through the night more than two nights a week since June of this year. Look out world, because I'm not stopping now.Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15635795508121641057noreply@blogger.com9