August 31st, 2005 - Injection #4

Ah, today I have a headache and rightfully so. It turns out after four years and asking for a raise they "feel that my salary is adequate for my position". Meaning either they can't afford a raise for me let alone a cost of living increase, which is crap, or they think I'm meaningless. I'd say they are just a bunch of cheap asses. What a slap in the face. I think that a cost of living increase is at least in order after four years and not one dime more increase than when I started. I realize money doesn't grow on trees, but I've also put in my time as well. I'm very frustrated. Paying for medication, additional prescriptions and little medical expenses here and there along with gas rising faster than my mom's beer bread, has put me in a position of health vs. skipping luxuries. By luxuries, I mean things, like groceries, haircuts and shampoo. Grr. I take a deep breath and try not to think about this today. My boyfriend calms me after I break the news. I go to lunch with a coworker, also named Mike and we have a nice chat. Not about any work stuff, but just a nice chat. I calm down. I try not to let anyone see that I'm indeed upset. I know that I do good work and that's all I have to remind myself of. Things work out in the end and sometimes in the most mysterious ways. On a lighter note, my guestbook on this site went wacko and then magically fixed itself! Yea! (NOTE TO SELF: Do back up of guest book entries). Today I must say that in spite of everything, I smile a little smug knowing that I am a good person fighting my own battle and that I with my mind and head high will beat anything that comes my way. I'm just THAT stubborn. I get it from my mother. She says Pollacks are indeed the most stubborn people on earth. I believe her. Sometimes not in a good way, but most of the time we stick to our beliefs, morals, and ethics. My family is just good like that. Plus, in a mean game of Polish Golf, also known as ladder golf, I'd take them as partners any day... Injection #4 today and I did the stomach fat area, I mean hip area, and I think I didn't get the fatty enough part, because it smarted a little during my injection and it had a little blood. I'll have to measure and pay more attention next time. Good thing is though that I had a minimal prep talk (seconds) and away I went :o) I think next time, I'll just do an "AND GO!" On an icky note, I was up last night with the weirdest dizzy/nausea combination. I did take my ibupro- excuse me, WALprofen, but it felt like I was awake and dreaming and the same time all while feeling like I was going to throw up. Well I was awake, but I wasn't dreaming. I really did feel like I was in a stupor of sorts. I was up for around 40 minutes then off to sleep with no problems. I think it helped just to ignore it and close my eyes. I'll remember that next time. Close eyes. Don't think. Try to sleep. Ha, same protocol when someone is talking to me I don't want to talk to. *wink* That's easy to remember. I'm horrible sometimes, but you gotta do what you gotta do, right? *smirk*