Wednesday, August 17, 2005
August 17th, 2005
Today I have had it. I can't go to work. My kidneys hurt and I can't even get flip flops on. My skin is horrible, I haven't sleep in days soundly and I am so bloated and have an enormous headache. My body has had enough. I stay home and sleep and pound water down in hopes to get back to some normalcy. I succeed a bit. I have an appetite today as well :o) I go to see Dr. Francis at 3pm. She checks me out. She states she wants to see me in 3 weeks and follow up on a dose of IV steriods in 6 weeks to normal everything out and suppress my immune system again. She sets up a lab screen for baseline for my now approved Rebif injections and I go to the lab and have blood drawn. She also schedules an MRI with contrast for next Monday, the 22nd at 1:45pm to see if she can see anything new that is going on and help see what has been progressing or perhaps causing my flareups. I fall asleep at 11pm, but manage to drink a lot more water today and get my shoes on finally. I fall asleep with something on my mind that has been plaguing me for 2 days. I've been seeing a guy now since January. He has been there for me through two attacks, but is that enough. Do I have enough energy to continue a relationship throughout all my stress? It seems like he just isn't there for me right now and I really need him the most. I wonder if it's best to take a break until he can be there if that is at all possible. I finally forget about it and drift off.