September 20th, 2005

I agreed yesterday to take the severance and work through the week to clean out my desk and to pass the work on smoothly. I did this because I do love my job, but it's not rewarding anymore. I also love the people I work with so leaving them hanging was not something I would ever do if it could be avoided. I'm just that sort of person. I am loyal to the people who are good to me. Last night my sister gave me my injection. That was a little scary and a little painful. My fault mostly as I told her to go slow and she went slow. Really slow. Too slow. LOL. It smarted a little, but we got through it. Both of us. I was short of breath again today and took a little aspirin/ibuprofen combination and nipped that side effect in the butt. I worked on my resume today throughout the day in the middle of "cleaning" off my desk. Today I must say was calming, overwhelming, and scary all at the same time. On friday, the HR guy and I have agreed to talk about the remaining transition and my last day. I slept so good tonight. Maybe it's because I didn't have to worry about my boss belittling me anymore. Maybe it's because I know I have a whole other world ahead of me. Maybe it's because for the first time in a long time, I know that I will have the resources to stay home, sleep, and take care of me and not worry financially what will be taken care of. Maybe it's all of the above. I've already got leads, not solid ones, but leads. It's better than none, that is for sure.